2003-05-15T23:24:00.000-05:00

Hey kids. So yeah, its 10:50 pm right now and i just finished my oh so fattening (but omg! delicious) fast food dinner. yeah, i didnt get my usual freakin huge salad like i usually get at Wendy's or Jack in the crack. *sigh* worked sucked today. in case you didnt talk to me at school today, i have no voice. im not sick or anything, i just randomly lose my voice about once a year for no reason. it doesnt really hurt (although it sounds terrible), its just mainly annoying. i kind of like the way i sound though, "its something different" as rebecca put it. man, i was showing everyone at work my prom pics, and they just kept gushing over how sharp me and jeremy looked together. like, i was just smiling for the longest time, but then my mind started remembering last friday night, and how much fun i had. like, jeremy is like the coolest guy ive met in my whole life. seriously. yeah we "dated" or whatever you want to call all that drama, but man it was so hard to just like get over him like he wanted me to. like i can say we've managed to stay in touch and remain friends which is like awesome, but like the night of prom started to conjure up all those feelings again. i was like, "no dont do this to yourself! and especially dont let him know youre thinking like that!" so i brushed it off, and just smiled at him a lot. yeah there was no "prom kiss" as jared put it, but that great big bear hug at the end was just as wonderful. i know i shouldnt be all like daydreaming about him, but he has made me find a way to just like forget about all the drama in my life and just have fun. he makes everything so stress free and its so easy to have a total blast around him, but hes a womanizer, of course. *rolls eyes* wouldnt ya know it? geez! like, i really want to spend time with him over the summer, and my mom said he could go up to galveston and bum around while we're there for the week, which would be so cool, but hes from a really big broken family and theres silent drama in his life he doesnt like to talk about, and i know he would feel like hes deserting his mom/family if he just came and stayed with us, but i dunno. he finally found out that he will be going to Abilene Christian University www.acu.edu he's really excited about it, and i checked it out and its a pretty nice private school. SMU IS BETTER THOUGH! haha our student to teacher ratio is 12:1 and his is 17:1. boo yuh! lol heres my school www.smu.edu/admissions such a great school! hehe.

man, back to work though. it sucks! RETAIL IS THE DEVIL! lol. sarah and michelle were there when i had just come in, and they were being goofy as usual. i love those girls so much, and im really going to miss both of them immensely when i leave in august. *sigh* we've had so much fun together, and i hope we can all hang out a bunch over the summer. im really trying to get a new job. i have to drive all the way out to the champions (over there by James Avery) and apply to the Klein Bank there, so i can try and get the job to the one on 529. are you kidding?! geez what a waste of time and running over there before they close. im going to be in such a cranky mood when i get home. lol, but E (EMAR!!!) is having a little fiesta thing at her casa tomorrow night, so that should be kewl. i hope that nathaniel guy is there, bc hes like really sort of hot and funny, but i hope there isnt a lot of drinking either. but it should be cool to hang out with all my college buddies who are home now! i really wanted to go to Jeremy's show at Java Jazz instead, but since some poon had to work (Sarah), and i couldnt find anyone else that was free, i had to decline my invite. *tear* yeah, hopefully i'll go to one of his shows someday.

man, school is kicking my ass right now. im putting off my mountains of homework to write this since my priorities are so messed up right now. lol. like tomorrow i have:
PERIOD 1: Africa test that will be counted as a quiz, and a paper due next Thursday
PERIOD 2: WAHOO! nothing but studying for.....
PERIOD 3: government K TEKS test and last current events quiz
PERIOD 4: turning in that stupid ass precal project, and taking the TEKS test which better be good enough to raise my test average
LUNCH: a sigh of relief and an attempt to eat my golden delicious apple before i start going through withdrawls
PERIOD 5: turning in all that gay complex circuit work that is soooo confusing, and then taking a TEST on all of it and praying that i at least get a B
PERIOD 6: eating left overs from the all day bead party, and reviewing for the final which is on the 27th along with the rediculous final portfolio we have to do

geez louise! WE HAVE ONE MORE WEEK LEFT OF SCHOOL AND LOOK AT ALL THE CRAP WE HAVE TO DO! i cant believe it, how dumb is the curriculum at my school? lol. well i think ive ranted and complained enough for tonight. time to final attack the mountain of african history, gov't reviews, current events, PRE-CAL, and complex circuits hopefully within the next 2 hours, puting me at 1:30 am. geez... lol. i'll talk to you later kiddos. have a great Friday! peace out yo!

All in a days work...